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Shopping is a delight to most women I know, except my sister who I can see rolling her eyes this moment at the very mention of the term. I am no exception, for reasons beyond boredom. What is therapy to people is more like OMG I need to find some fabric to cover my modesty to me! This post is the Fat girl's note to fashion brands! Dear Fashion, I know I am not perfect, I know I have flabby arms, a flabby belly, flabby thighs and flabby everything! I know you like to hang out with the more fun type of girls, the ones who fit into you like you were meant to be! I know to you - sizes from L onward are like the Smoker Mukesh ads  - IMPOSED! You look so pretty and make the ones who fit in so confident - I dream of that confidence! The feeling of having you with them makes them complete - I long for that feeling of being content! The OH SO SHINY pictures on their Instagram - I so wish I had at least one such! You know so much about whats hot and whats not! You know so much abou...

There is always that thin line that makes all the difference! A month or so hence, I am here, again with a story from my collection of Notes to Self, hope you like it! Just yesterday I made a bold Facebook status update - You  know you have arrived in life when you can eat salads @ Barbeque Nation ... yes I could do it. I know its a criminal waste of money but it did teach me something magnificent about my own self and thus, the 1600 + GST was worth it. I learnt that I am super strong! The control I have over my mind just amazed me and I cant stop re-thinking of every time I thought I was weak. This piece is not a "Praise thyself and attract more praise" sort of a thing, its meant to awaken the feeling of appreciating that strength in thyself that you never knew. Not too long ago, I  felt comfortable hiding, be it behind my classmates in 4th grade to avoid the teacher's glance thinking she would ask me to read the lesson or hide my body in layers of over-s...

Hello again! Came across a highly shared post of illustrations which may seem like "GYAN" to most of us but man that was so true! The post illustrated social media as a world that is flooding minds with unrealistic expectations and sucking us into depression. While social media is infamous for the pressure it puts on to you to be perfect, such perfection hungry critiques are real and around us and boy, they are vocal! They feel no shame to share their unsolicited views on your life, in-fact they take this as their rightful duty to tell that you are missing out on your life because you are just not perfect! Just recently, I figured that the tremendous effort I have been putting in so far on fixing on of my imperfection - WEIGHT  - was not enough! I discovered in the world now has a problem with my sweet little tooth. I have lived with this slightly crooked tooth of mine for approximately 20 years or so! Apparently, its very prominent now that I have lost nearly 50% of t...

Two years ago today,  I got inked for the first time. For over a week I made plans with my bestie Pia as to what  it  is that I should get... I was  confused between  a dream catcher and ; ... it so happened that a few months prior to actually getting the tattoo ,  I read this piece on Facebook  about the semicolon ';'  as a tattoo and what it means. The  semicolon , as a punctuation is used when the writer decides to continue a sentence at a point that could have been its end - interesting !  I thought. After a lot of thought, I was convinced that this  was  who I was (while the real reason for not going ahead with the dream-catcher design was that secretly,  I wasn't sure about getting a large design ) Thus  al;ve  was born. Having lived  with it for 2 years, I have come to realize that it truly resonates with me as a person and my life story. I could have stopped  doing  a lot of things;...

As a kid I heard stuff like 'change is the only constant' and wondered if it has to change, why waste time trying to do anything about it - Lazy me you see ... ( I am writing a new post after 6+ years, that explains a lot) but today is different, today I had to say it. This morning when I got dressed up for a friendship day celebration at work (yes I work on Saturdays :( ) I asked Mr. Husband to take a picture of me for my before & after collection (BTW I am on a weight loss cycle again! This time on I am 100% at it) he took a good one with his iPhone 7+ and wallah! I look stunning - to him, of course and to me for the first time in a while! I sent the pic to my sister and she said - Make this your DP... and I was not sure! I have been conscious of a lot of things in the 30 years being, so much that I would find comfort in hiding behind the crowd, this was perfectly normal till I met my split personality for the first time in school. This split is a center stage person...